Should.  I hate that word.  And yet it is constantly going through my head.  What I should do, think, feel.  And yet I am so very muddled because Moe is there... hi, Moe... so it is hard to make sense of it all.  I am sure that is not all Moe.  Some of it has to be that I am so very tired.  Maybe tonight I will sleep.  I hope.