I should journal about all the stress that was today but I don't know if I can so I will at least type out something. 

• the youth group is not doing the human video and where this alleviates some stress, it adds some as well and now my girls are the only kids going to fa from our church.  I hate our youth group.  We really need a youth pastor... that's not going to happen.


• I want a place to belong.  I don't want to be the freak that I am.  I don't want to be different in so many ways.  I want the impossible. 


• I made a scene at church today.  That's not really fair to me to say it that way, but I am pretty sure that is how it was perceived.  It sucks to be me sometimes. 


• I miss Angie.  I know that the changes in our church are for good, but she was my friend and I miss her. 


• I am not going on the leadership retreats.  This is a relief in a big way.


• the lady got the wrong size shoe for M at the dance store and I didn't double check it so now I have to go back...


• A didn't throw a fit today.  Why is this stress?  I guess it's not, just that I still don't know what her problem is.