This journal was hard to find.  Well, not that hard.  It just wasn't in email like I expected it to be.  Truly, I hate seeing "me" sign a different name, but whatever.  I got used to it before and I can get used to it again.  That said, I have a million questions for "me" to answer.  Why the h am I in so much pain?!?  OK.  Maybe only one question, but it is a doozy.  I am tired.  I am nauseated.  I am agitated.  And I am in pain.  What gives?



Regarding earlier entires...

1. Who can read this?


2. What decision?


3. What on earth possessed any part of me to tell M about that day?


4. What are the little girls' names?  More specifically, which one is Jordyn and what is the other one named?


5. Why would any part of me think that it would be OK to leave M alone after acting like that?


6. 6-8 weeks?!?  What exactly is wrong with my arm?