Moe has this way of making me so tired that it is almost impossible not to go away.  The only thing I have found that works is pain; biting my lip, pressing on my sore finger, whatever.  And I do whatever it takes to stay present in those moments because she only does it when the girls are acting out. 



A is upset because... well to be honest I am still not sure.  She was throwing a fit about having to redo her vocab words again.  But she was also upset because I didn't offer to help/hear her ask for help.  And something about using her words.  That it is overwhelming and huge how this one little request covers so much of her life/so many of her struggles.  Or something.  She wasn't making sense and I was trying too hard to stay present to make much sense of it, but I think she feels listened to and I think she thinks whatever it is is solved.  That's going to have to be good enough, I guess. 



M is in her room journaling because she started throwing a fit when A was so upset.  She has been in there over an hour.  She is hiding her journal.  I know sort of where it is and can find it if I am alone in the house I am sure.  I will look on Friday while they are at co-op.  This morning when I scanned the dates, I saw some things that were concerning. 



I am so very tired.  I must stay present.  I must.