Thankful Thursday

What am I thankful for today?

spellcheck and computers, Internet and telephones, doctors and pain medicine, comfy clothes and comfy chairs, easy dinners and favorite cups, my children and my friends, faith and prayer, art classes and movie nights, friends and hope

What are you thankful for today?

Depression

It slowly creeps in
Swirling around
the edges of my life
Barely noticeable
at first

Before I realize
what is happening
I am surrounded
by a fog
So thick
that I cannot see
anything
So heavy
that the burden
seems more
than I can bear
and then
it begins
to strangle me

I have been here before
I know the fog will lift
if only I can hold on
I even know why I am here

But none of that helps
When the fog begins
to suffocate me
When it is so dark
that I cannot see
a way out

Snapshot Saturday

July 2010

At the zoo

Thankful Thursday

What am I thankful for today?

I am thankful that I am doing better than last week. 

I am thankful for friends who encourage me, help me in tangible ways, sometimes scold me, pray for me, and in many ways help me to become a better person. 

I am thankful for the Internet and the people it has brought into my life. 

I am thankful for my girls.

I am thankful for fall.  I think it is my favorite time of year. 

What are you thankful for today? 

Snapshot Saturday

August 2005

Anatomy of a Day

I get up and take the kids to co-op and wonder what I should do with the next two hours...I talk to another mom about life, not much about kids. When it is time to go, I know we need to go to the pharmacy to pick up some meds...I stop and talk to a girl about assignments and realize I should be addressing her mom and letting the kids talk to each other. We chat for a while and I head to the pharmacy. They are taking forever...I am at the pharmacy. When I am done I head toward home, unsure what time the doctor appointment is and concerned that we will not have time for lunch because one of the children thinks the appointment is in just under an hour...It's lunchtime and I am at home...I am at home and realize it is time to leave for the doctor so I start the drive into the city...It's almost 2:00 and I am driving to the doctor's office...I am at the doctor's office. He is relatively unconcerned meaning the current problem is not in his area of expertise but the previous blood work indicates that I will need regular visits to his office in the future. He asserts that I need to follow up with the other doctor and get that issue under control, intones that I will feel much better after the surgery. I leave the doctor...I am driving and go to the Goodwill...I am shopping; first at one Goodwill and I decide to head to another...I stop at the grocery store to pick something up to eat***I am at the checkout at Goodwill. I get to my car and realize it is a different store than before. I head towards home and remember that I need to stop at the grocery store...I am at a different grocery store, buying basics for the home like shampoo and toothpaste***I am driving home***I wake up and begin eating dinner...I am eating dinner and I don't feel well. One of the kids becomes worried and calls our T to be reassured that I am truly OK as I say I am. I talk to the T and together we calm the child down. After resting a bit, I decide to take a bath...I am soaking in the tub***I type this...I am typing this so I begin filling in the blanks that I can...I am typing this so I begin to fill in blanks where I can...I am typing this, wondering who represents green and who represents blue and what other blanks will even get filled in. My one child shows me a page in a stamp book. I don't remember buying the stamps...I am here, filling in the blanks. One of the kids needs me, unsure if they threw a fit today and therefore needs to go to bed at nine or if they can stay up until ten. I ask the child to review the time in question with me and together we decide that yes it was a fit. I am not very sure that this is the case, but the child seems satisfied so I trust the judgement. I feel dizzy and sit down to watch TV, but am uninterested in the shows available so I come back to this task, wishing I felt better...

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Not So Thankful Thursday

What am I thankful for today? I don't know. I am thankful for the basics, like life and family and home and such. I am thankful for people that are in my life. Liz who is cleaning the church for me again this week. Autumn who is on standby to take my kids when I need her. I am thankful for God and faith and all that He brings to my life; peace, hope, etc.

I am also frustrated. I desperately want to feel better, to think thoughts coherent enough to be able to put them here. I want to be able to concentrate on reading a book and understand what I have read. I want to go to church with more regularity than I have been able to lately and I want the strength to serve others again. I want to have fun with my girls and be able to visit friends who are in the hospital. I want to run. Right now going up the stairs depletes more energy than running a mile and a half did before I got sick. I want to live life again.

Snapshot Saturday

June 2009

Isn't she beautiful?

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful that 14 years ago today I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl who is rapidly becoming a lovely young lady.

I am thankful that she is alive and healthy to celebrate this day.

I am thankful for all the miracles that God did in and on her behalf that allows her to be here today.

Happy Birthday, FigNewTon!

Snapshot Saturday

August 4, 2010

Photo taken at the Detroit Zoo. The zoo is a must see if you are ever in the Detroit area. It is small enough to see it all in an afternoon, but definitely worth the trip.

Thankful Thursday

What am I thankful for today?

cooler weather, sunshine, garden vegetables,
friends, my children,
time, organization,
easy dinners, leftovers,
craft projects, school starting,
telephone, computer, television, music, electricity,
peace, patience, grace, love,
God's presence in the midst of it all

What are you thankful for today?