Today's Medical Technology

I have been thinking a bit today.

While FigNewTon was sick, I thanked God that we not only live in America, but that we live where we live in America because of the access to good medical care. While she was sick, good medical care was a must. Simply stated, it saved her life. So, often I thanked God that we live where we live during this time in history. Had it been even five years earlier, her chances of survival would have been minimal.

With Butterfly and all that is happening with her brain right now, there is really nothing that the doctors have been able to do. They can do brain scans or run other tests, but they can't fix anything. I cannot tell you how many times I have heard the phrase, "with today's medical technology." Because with "today's medical technology" they can see nothing wrong with her brain. There is a name for it and a list of symptoms that go along with it. And there is documented evidence from other people who died while still exhibiting symptoms that there is a molecular difference in the brain when someone is suffering from PCS. It is just that with "today's medical technology" we can't see it. We are all aware that there is something wrong, but just like before the development of x-ray's they could not see inside the human body, they cannot see what is wrong inside of her brain now. So often I am left with more questions than answers. And sometimes that gets unnerving.

And then I thought, "What would I do if it were 100 years ago or if we lived where 'today's medical technology' were unavailable?" Well, I would accept that all of her symptoms were because she hit her head and she either would or wouldn't get better and she either would or wouldn't live and that it was entirely out of my hands. I would live, day by day, thanking God for every moment that we have and every bit of progress. I would do whatever was in my power to help her. And I would love her where she is at. So, that is exactly what I have set my mind to do even with "today's medical technology." No more worrying or even wondering what will happen tomorrow. Because there are a lot of ifs and maybes that are scary. But right now I choose not to be consumed by them any longer.